12 May Looking Forward
“So, let go my soul and trust in Him, the waves and wind still know His name” – Bethel Music
Early morning on the last day of our Unwavering Conference, Cynda and I had worship music playing softly in our cruise stateroom while we sat on our beds sipping our coffee which had been delivered to our room at 6:30 AM. We’d deliberately woken up early to mentally prepare for the morning ahead.
There’d already been so many beautiful moments during the conference, but we sensed there was more to come.
My bed was next to the window, and I decided to crack open the curtain. It was still fairly dark but there was a sliver of light on the horizon. We didn’t know we were on the eastside of the boat until this moment, and we stood mesmerized as the sun slowly emerged from the sea. We were speechless. It was such a beautiful sight!
Some of you may experience sunrises on the regular, but not this girl!!
It’s a rare occasion I’m up before the sun, but I believe God orchestrated this morning to paint a picture for us. As we watched the golden fireball rise with a slow but powerful grace, my spirit was comforted. A peace which surpasses understanding overtook the room. It was in that moment of peace where I noticed something symbolic, and it took my breath away.
It was the waves. They were huge. They were billowing. They were swelling and crashing down around the boat, seeming to dance in rhythm with the worship music playing in the background. By the look of the waves you would’ve thought we felt the movement…the tossing and crashing…and yet, we were sailing along smoothly. Safe and secure—unwavering in the midst of the changing sea.
I looked at Cynda and said with resolve, “It is well.”
It is well. The words my heart needed to hear.
She smiled and repeated them, “It IS well.”
The words of a song we planned to sing together at the conference became even more meaningful right then. This ministry and the women it serves, whom we both love with all of our hearts, are in His capable, loving hands.
It’s been an unsettling few months for the leadership team of FTGI. We’re now well aware of why, back in the Spring of 2017, God whispered the theme UNWAVERING to us for the year 2018. We’re in a season of relying on His unwavering stability in uncertain times.
The one and only pain point FTGI has ever had over the years is sustaining the organization financially.
We thought the FTGI Boutique might be the solution, but it was obvious towards the end of the summer of 2017, the boutique was more of a drain than a help to the organization’s finances. We had to make the difficult decision to close it.
More recently, at the last board meeting, the Board of Directors had to face the numbers and come to terms with the fact this organization cannot sustain employees at this time. We had to make the even more difficult decision to lay off our incredible Program Director, Jayde Gray, who as many of you know, holds a lot of our administration pieces together. Jayde has displayed a mind-boggling calm through this transition—a beautiful example of the gracious uncertainty she spoke of in her blog last week and we’re so grateful for her and her unwavering loyalty to the mission of FTGI.
And so, we enter a season of very intentional and deliberate prayer to determine what’s next for FTGI. We suspect there will be some restructuring, but we don’t want to get ahead of ourselves until we have dedicated some time to seek God’s direction for the future.
There are many examples in the Bible of leaders who set aside time to pray before continuing on with tasks God put before them, and we feel this is exactly what God is calling us to do in this season. The Board of Directors has decided to take a 3-month period to rest, pray, and listen for “what’s next.”
You can see why the beautiful picture of the waves crashing around us juxtaposed with the steadiness of the ship and the deep, unexplainable, unwavering, peace flooding our room was so significant.
We could’ve done this quietly, taken some time off without a lot of explanation but that’s not how we roll around here. We want you to be a part of this with us. We’re in this together, right? We wanted to share our hearts with you knowing you would pray alongside us.
We want you to enjoy watching the sun rise too!!
We have a great sense of anticipation of what the “new” will be like. There is much we’re unsure of right now, but this much we know:
Nothing can stop the movement of “Awakening Purpose, Igniting Passion, and Mobilizing Women.”
Each and every one of us can do this every single day. Just look around at who God’s placed within your scope of influence. Who needs a little encouragement? Whose fire can you fan into a burning flame? How can you help someone take a baby step in the direction of their dreams? How can you take a step yourself to move towards those dreams God’s placed in your heart?
During the next three months as we pray and seek direction, you can honor the mission of FTGI by continuing to run your race with perseverance. We are as inspired today as we were 10 years ago, by our founding verse:
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us.” Hebrews 12:1
And as we enter our second decade, we’re encouraged by the very next verse:
“We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.” Hebrews 12:2
We know that we cannot go wrong by keeping our eyes on Jesus, our hearts postured to hear the voice from behind us saying, this is the way, walk in it! (Isaiah 30:21)
We hope you take time this summer to rest, pray, and hear from God. You’ll be in our prayers and we hope you’ll remember our leadership team in yours.
We can’t wait to see what God has up His sleeve for us next. We rest in His UNWAVERING love for us.
With great anticipation and lots of love,
P.S. During our break we still have something very special for you to take part in—Cynda Harris is hosting a 10-week Online Coaching Course called Fixed Towards Unwavering through Grow Life, Inc. This course was developed from our conference topics and will include guest speakers from our UNWAVERING conference but will go deeper with each topic.
Topics included: Unwavering Courage, Unwavering Authority, Unwavering Leadership, Unwavering Growth, Unwavering Confidence, Unwavering Faith, Unwavering Strength and Unwavering Joy (yes, joy!) even in the middle of the hardest seasons of your life. Click here for all the details for the course + coaching package add-ons.
P.S.S You can watch a clip of our sunrise experience by clicking here